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Dear
As I sat down to write this letter, I wanted to express why I hurt so much inside. At first, I clearly didn't understand this class nor its direction. I thought in my little world that I was in control of things around me and if our personalities didn't work, my motto was "WHATEVER" !! & move on and write them off. But clearly I have begun to understand what my purpose was towards others and how we effect eachother by our actions.
My story is about time, love & pain and how it effects our loved ones, family, friends and people that we encounter within our journey through life. I hurt my loved ones and family the most by only thinking of myself and what I wanted out of life, by spending the majority of my time working on my dream. I was killing my relationship with my wife and children. Family became unimportant or too needy. I became easily irritated and my dialog became short along with harsh language.
During this time, I started to see the effects my attitude had on my wife. She became unsure of herself. I questioned my love for her, and my children became afraid to talk to me, scared of what I might say or do. Their pain was totally invisable to me. I had taken them on an emotional roller coaster ride and never stopped to think what I was doing to them, my wife or myself emotionally or physically. I was trying to build a company but was destroying our family in the process. I was angry, resentful and hated myself and my life.
I now have a clear understanding of what it means to have compassion for self and others, especially those you love and who love you for who you are. I have to train my mind to focus on what comes first for me and that is my FAMILY. I want my children to have a legacy to build upon. I want to empower my family, not blame them for my short comings. I want my wife and me to work as a team to accomplish our goals not over power her with threats and put-downs. In order for me to keep from hurting my family, I must not cut them off, but listen to what issues they have bwithout judging them.
My final note: I truly believe that through compassion, understanding, respect and responsibility I can enrich my life and the lives of those I love. This is now my dream/ our dream/ our reality. Carl Dec., 2008 |